Today this entry isn't going to be my usual music or spoken word writing. Today this entry is about reflecting while I'll try and keep my tears in check. Today marks the year of my god father passing away. I can recall the my mom calling me repeatedly around 3am trying to get a hold of me or my sister, telling me that my god father was in the hospital. Then we both rush to the hospital and from there it was a week of back and forth to the hospital, no sleep, hoping for the best, until the day came where we had to let him go. It happened so quickly that it was like I had no time to breathe. Who knew from that day on was a turning point in my life.
Everyone hears, "life is short" and "you never know when you're time is up" I've taken note of these things but never really put too much thought into it until it actually hit me. Other times when relatives passed away, I understood, I get it only because it really was their time to go. This time it was different, it was unexpected.
Most people don't realize what they do day in to day out, they don't see that they are living a vicious circle of just literally sleep, eat, work, repeat. Now some are okay with that, I see things differently. I believe there's more out there and that there's more living to do than just in the little sandbox that everyone is comfortable with.
With that said, really just really stop for a minute and live a little. Live life, take chances, don't care about what people think about you, make moves, if you like someone tell them, don't live life with regrets, make every moment, take control of your life, stop being scared, be responsible but carefree, stop dreaming and start doing, never settle.
What I'm trying to get at is, do the things you want to do, what makes you happy, because really time is short and we all don't know when our time is up. Take advantage of your life now before it's too late. Always keep fighting for what you want and never give up. Love yourself, your family, and your friends.
I still miss you and I know you're in a better place. I'll see you, not soon but you know what I mean.
"The best way to live life, is a life with no regrets",
Justin
Monday, September 5, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Fader
It didn't have to go like this.
Well see ya later.
Betcha want it all.
But i'm gone like a fader.
Wyclef said he'll be gone till November.
I'm back on the scene leave a message.
I'm gone like forever.
Unobtainable that's what-I-are.
Packed up my bags.
See all of these scars.
I don't play when-i-walk-a-way.
I'll keep my head up past present future today.
The scenic of my past was quite a view.
Plays out like a movie.
More than I can chew.
More than those red vines?
More than those too.
More than I can speak?
What more could i do?
The only solution is moving on.
I'll catch you later.
When the music stops.
I'm gone like a fader...
Well see ya later.
Betcha want it all.
But i'm gone like a fader.
Wyclef said he'll be gone till November.
I'm back on the scene leave a message.
I'm gone like forever.
Unobtainable that's what-I-are.
Packed up my bags.
See all of these scars.
I don't play when-i-walk-a-way.
I'll keep my head up past present future today.
The scenic of my past was quite a view.
Plays out like a movie.
More than I can chew.
More than those red vines?
More than those too.
More than I can speak?
What more could i do?
The only solution is moving on.
I'll catch you later.
When the music stops.
I'm gone like a fader...
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Mid Month In July
Premise -
Been a pretty heavy month, one moment I'm cloud nine then down in the dumps 48 hours later, you take a moment of clarity and well as any writer would you take those experiences and you share it with the world. For those who have been following thank you I hope you've enjoyed everything that I've wrote so far in my life, new comers I hope you all can enjoy as well as I try to write about my experiences and paint you all a lyrical picture.
Hook -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what it's worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Verse 1 -
Look, it's pretty much mid year, mid month, mid time in the summer.
Got the time think about life and all of it's wonders.
Mid July got me on a high and at the same I felt like I died inside.
I'm not talking about death or suicide but when I tried to get ahead I fell back behind.
I remember it was Tuesday working on the grind
Making that money just trying to survive.
5:30 hit and I felt alive
Time to get out this mother fucker enjoy my day got in my ride.
That's when things turned worse. Job called me and said.
"Mr. Bautista we don't need you for the work, your performance was low and the incident on Monday caused for us to terminate you today."
Heh is that really the reason?
Or was it because that bitch really stretched to get me out this season?
I really was warned to not eat chips after 4:15
If you're not kissing ass try and keep your nose clean.
(Damn... they didn't even give me a verbal or written warning what the fuck?)
Hook -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what it's worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Lost my job over some petty shit.
Don't each chips you better come correct.
Even if you touch the blinds get ready to get hit.
You could potentially get cut by the execs. (I shit you not)
Verse 2 -
Moving to thought number 2.
This ones more of a high not feeling so blue.
I've been seeing her for quite some time.
Making up the distance that we have I don't mind.
She lives an hour away.
The thought of seeing you keeps going but kills me everyday.
I wish I can see you at the drop of a dime.
You're my favorite lyric in my music's life line.
Making you smile is always an ever lasting memory.
Burned in my mind I close my eyes and it's you I see.
You got me high on a mental level.
Saturday the 9th was great for an example.
This whole time I've been dying to hold your hand.
Afternoon at Twin Peaks is where we finally stand.
I said "You look cold, you need some warmth?"
That's when you took my hand and I we finally set forth.
Before I thought it was funny how the Beatles wrote on this issue.
But now as we interlock I see how it's important, it's special.
Like before I said we can take it slow.
But I can't help to miss you every time I've got to go.
Hook -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what it's worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Saturday was pretty exciting.
I wish it never ended you got me literally flying.
Every time we hang we getting close.
You are the one I always think of the most.
Verse 3 -
Now that you heard the negatives and positives.
I want to en light on what i did.
I grinded out and submitted applications.
This Monday I scored an interview no down time for Justin.
Let's get it I still look forward to this year.
I'll get it locked down trying to get a career.
Job security is all I need.
Determination is what I breathe.
You had me down for a moment in time.
I'm not gonna stop now I'm ready to shine.
It's only been mid month It's a crazy story.
Now it's stored in my mind's inventory.
Another tale to tell
For everybody who hears this, this shits for real.
Mid Month In July is crazy as hell...
Hook x2 -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what its worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Been a pretty heavy month, one moment I'm cloud nine then down in the dumps 48 hours later, you take a moment of clarity and well as any writer would you take those experiences and you share it with the world. For those who have been following thank you I hope you've enjoyed everything that I've wrote so far in my life, new comers I hope you all can enjoy as well as I try to write about my experiences and paint you all a lyrical picture.
Hook -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what it's worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Verse 1 -
Look, it's pretty much mid year, mid month, mid time in the summer.
Got the time think about life and all of it's wonders.
Mid July got me on a high and at the same I felt like I died inside.
I'm not talking about death or suicide but when I tried to get ahead I fell back behind.
I remember it was Tuesday working on the grind
Making that money just trying to survive.
5:30 hit and I felt alive
Time to get out this mother fucker enjoy my day got in my ride.
That's when things turned worse. Job called me and said.
"Mr. Bautista we don't need you for the work, your performance was low and the incident on Monday caused for us to terminate you today."
Heh is that really the reason?
Or was it because that bitch really stretched to get me out this season?
I really was warned to not eat chips after 4:15
If you're not kissing ass try and keep your nose clean.
(Damn... they didn't even give me a verbal or written warning what the fuck?)
Hook -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what it's worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Lost my job over some petty shit.
Don't each chips you better come correct.
Even if you touch the blinds get ready to get hit.
You could potentially get cut by the execs. (I shit you not)
Verse 2 -
Moving to thought number 2.
This ones more of a high not feeling so blue.
I've been seeing her for quite some time.
Making up the distance that we have I don't mind.
She lives an hour away.
The thought of seeing you keeps going but kills me everyday.
I wish I can see you at the drop of a dime.
You're my favorite lyric in my music's life line.
Making you smile is always an ever lasting memory.
Burned in my mind I close my eyes and it's you I see.
You got me high on a mental level.
Saturday the 9th was great for an example.
This whole time I've been dying to hold your hand.
Afternoon at Twin Peaks is where we finally stand.
I said "You look cold, you need some warmth?"
That's when you took my hand and I we finally set forth.
Before I thought it was funny how the Beatles wrote on this issue.
But now as we interlock I see how it's important, it's special.
Like before I said we can take it slow.
But I can't help to miss you every time I've got to go.
Hook -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what it's worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Saturday was pretty exciting.
I wish it never ended you got me literally flying.
Every time we hang we getting close.
You are the one I always think of the most.
Verse 3 -
Now that you heard the negatives and positives.
I want to en light on what i did.
I grinded out and submitted applications.
This Monday I scored an interview no down time for Justin.
Let's get it I still look forward to this year.
I'll get it locked down trying to get a career.
Job security is all I need.
Determination is what I breathe.
You had me down for a moment in time.
I'm not gonna stop now I'm ready to shine.
It's only been mid month It's a crazy story.
Now it's stored in my mind's inventory.
Another tale to tell
For everybody who hears this, this shits for real.
Mid Month In July is crazy as hell...
Hook x2 -
Mid month and it's been pretty defining.
Some of it has been shining and other times it has been incredibly blinding.
For what its worth I'm not sitting here crying.
Living life as much as I can is better than dying.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Restless
Today it's whatever comes to mind since I can't manage to fall asleep.
Heavy on the motivate legs dragging trying to escape.
The only thing on his mind is the mission to find sublime.
Stuck on the daily grind with the only distraction that's divine.
Trying to stay chill but time is nipping on his heels trying to recreate
what had happen on that one day.
life happens and time goes on, the effort is enough trying to stay strong.
when there isn't anything around he gets the grasp to keep everything on the ground.
this life is hectic,
trying to get up
to move up
to get on
and get out
the silence is so loud.
we cut to grab a hold of whatever it is before it turns cold.
Heavy on the motivate legs dragging trying to escape.
The only thing on his mind is the mission to find sublime.
Stuck on the daily grind with the only distraction that's divine.
Trying to stay chill but time is nipping on his heels trying to recreate
what had happen on that one day.
life happens and time goes on, the effort is enough trying to stay strong.
when there isn't anything around he gets the grasp to keep everything on the ground.
this life is hectic,
trying to get up
to move up
to get on
and get out
the silence is so loud.
we cut to grab a hold of whatever it is before it turns cold.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Floating
All I needed was something to inspire me and I think I found it. Another attempt to writing music, I hope you like.
Hook -
Girl you got me turned up.
You got me so stuck.
The realist I've ever seen, day dream, it's crazy.
Cuz` Girl you got me turned up.
You know wassup.
You're always on my mind, all the time, day and night, lady.
Verse 1 -
You're always the one that caught my attention.
Eyes locked I'm stuck in your gazin.
Every week I hope we both get to be.
Days out chillen girl you're my ecstasy.
You got me on high that I won't come down.
I wish I could be around you more right now.
But the work got us busy though.
Girl I just want you to know.
Hook -
Girl you got me turned up.
You got me so stuck.
The realist I've ever seen, day dream, it's crazy.
Cuz` Girl you got me turned up.
You know wassup.
You're always on my mind, all the time, day and night, lady.
Verse 2 -
It started out with a new approach.
Straight up honest with you cause you're the most.
Got me laughing and smiling from ear to ear.
It's early but you've made my year.
At work I stay day dreaming of the night before.
I wish we had more time to explore.
Sending text messages just to make you blush.
No worries girl, we could take the time cause there's no rush.
Hook -
Girl you got me turned up.
You got me so stuck.
The realist I've ever seen, day dream, it's crazy.
Cuz` Girl you got me turned up.
You know wassup.
You're always on my mind, all the time, day and night, lady.
Verse 3 -
I got you saying things like daaaaamn.
Caught myself a couple times saying yayuh.
Doesn't matter where we go.
As long as I'm with you we can go with the flow.
It's those small things you do that make me smile the most.
Got me on cloud nine I want to forever float.
I like where this is going.
You're pretty Ill and hella dope.
Finally breathing again.
Hook -
Girl you got me turned up.
You got me so stuck.
The realist I've ever seen, day dream, it's crazy.
Cuz` Girl you got me turned up.
You know wassup.
You're always on my mind, all the time, day and night, lady.
Verse 1 -
You're always the one that caught my attention.
Eyes locked I'm stuck in your gazin.
Every week I hope we both get to be.
Days out chillen girl you're my ecstasy.
You got me on high that I won't come down.
I wish I could be around you more right now.
But the work got us busy though.
Girl I just want you to know.
Hook -
Girl you got me turned up.
You got me so stuck.
The realist I've ever seen, day dream, it's crazy.
Cuz` Girl you got me turned up.
You know wassup.
You're always on my mind, all the time, day and night, lady.
Verse 2 -
It started out with a new approach.
Straight up honest with you cause you're the most.
Got me laughing and smiling from ear to ear.
It's early but you've made my year.
At work I stay day dreaming of the night before.
I wish we had more time to explore.
Sending text messages just to make you blush.
No worries girl, we could take the time cause there's no rush.
Hook -
Girl you got me turned up.
You got me so stuck.
The realist I've ever seen, day dream, it's crazy.
Cuz` Girl you got me turned up.
You know wassup.
You're always on my mind, all the time, day and night, lady.
Verse 3 -
I got you saying things like daaaaamn.
Caught myself a couple times saying yayuh.
Doesn't matter where we go.
As long as I'm with you we can go with the flow.
It's those small things you do that make me smile the most.
Got me on cloud nine I want to forever float.
I like where this is going.
You're pretty Ill and hella dope.
Finally breathing again.
Monday, March 28, 2011
It's What I Miss
Getting back into it
writing something so fluid
getting back to my lost art
getting back to that lost heart
getting back to something real
so let me write and recite while you sit back and chill
another week is gone
trying to find some motivation to keep me up in elevation
stackin money every week
hard work gets me there while the haters try n peep
settled in my zone
while ya'll thought i don't do this well surprise I comin right through with it
yes i used to write on the daily
i write in my blogspot trashed all the hard cop's it's crazy
I'll leave you with this
this is my present to ya'll
writing... It's what I miss. - Justin 12:01AM
writing something so fluid
getting back to my lost art
getting back to that lost heart
getting back to something real
so let me write and recite while you sit back and chill
another week is gone
trying to find some motivation to keep me up in elevation
stackin money every week
hard work gets me there while the haters try n peep
settled in my zone
while ya'll thought i don't do this well surprise I comin right through with it
yes i used to write on the daily
i write in my blogspot trashed all the hard cop's it's crazy
I'll leave you with this
this is my present to ya'll
writing... It's what I miss. - Justin 12:01AM
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